It's almost like a bad SNL sketch...like that scene from "Broadcast News," where the Albert Brooks character gets his shot at the big-time and sweats like a hooker in church, or a politician under oath. I'm certain, by golly, that there's some sort of Kickstarter "blooper reel" for the LEAST effective/successful campaigns...GOT to be. If not, now might be the time to start one. 'Cept it wouldn't really be funny. Kinda sad, prob'ly.
I haven't really done much the last day or so...the first couple of days stunned me, I think...made me a bit ill. I didn't really expect MUCH, but I expected more. My greatest fear is that I've lost all credibility with the cast I've got so far, though most have known me long enough to know I've never really had any great credibility burden anyway. Lol. Is it acceptable to put "lol" in a blog post? I'm sure it is. I just don't read many blog posts.
I have a tendency to want to get angry with my FB "friends" who en mass wanted absolutely nothing to do with this project...and I do lash out in snarky little ways, like just now. But I certainly don't dwell on that for long before I start blaming myself for doing wrong whatever it was that I obviously did wrong in communicating the essence of this project. Besides sucking at self-promotion, which I've gone into ad nauseum in the brief history of this blog, and will not dwell upon again here. Yet. I really never know when that shit's gonna rear its ugly head...
One tries to step back and look at things dear with at least some objectivity, but it's tough. Many times, to be too objective is to find an argument against doing something you know you're going to do anyway. At least, that's my experience. In fact, it's that experience which teaches me that we don't use our failures so much as warnings of things to avoid in the future, but as a way to at least tell ourselves we're smart - as in, "I knew that was going to happen!" Again, just my experience, and quite the digression at that...
So - I look at this outside myself and say to myself, "Well, this feller seems to be somewhat amusing at times, but awfully depressive and neurotic. AND he seems to go off on tangents and weird little projects all the time, but never really does anything with them. And fifteen grand? I've considered doing a lot of things, but giving that kinda money to a kook ain't one of 'em."
First of all, that anyone would think such things about me makes me sad. I've been pretty focused on this project in one form or another since last February, through all that shit that went down with my health and the what-not. And still, I AIN'T MAKIN' SHIT OFF THIS! Lol. It's like I yelled it.
I planned the budget quite carefully, and I'm not paying myself a dime. The bulk is for studio time - in the neighborhood of (and prob'ly more than) one hundred hours. Steve Goodie, my long-time buddy and Musical Director of the project, normally gets quite a bit more for this, and it's as good a deal as one could possibly get in Nash-vegas. I'm also paying the voice talent - again, it'll be less than they're worth. Kickstarter takes five percent, they say to figure fifteen percent for taxes - so there's that. There's the artwork and duplication, there's a little something for musicians that ain't Steve (sigh - yeah, he plays damned near everything...but we'll most likely have guest players), some publicity and supplies and the what-not. I'm absolutely, totally fine with not budgeting myself anything. There's ample reward down the road. I'm not doing this to bring attention to that so much, as to demonstrate I'm not just pulling numbers out of my ass.
All righty then. All blogged out. Gonna try to communicate some of the above in FB posts and tweets and the what-not.
The Kickstarter Campaign for the Concept CD "DIARY OF A DEAD GUY - the Country-freakin'-OPERA!!" is officially underway!
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Ty Hager is a singer-songwriter, novelist, and radio host/producer.